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 I feel like shit.  I feel like shit.  I feel like shit.  I feel like shit.  I feel like shit.  I feel like shit.  I feel like shit. I FEEL LIKE SHIT.

Why does me saying anything to anyone that’s personal or about my experience makes me like such a piece of shit, I don’t want to trauma dump on people and I just honestly feel like I shouldn’t tell anything about myself ever to anyone because it either makes them bad or awkward or makes me feel like shit, there’s no middle ground. My whole fucking life feel like a Cheval de Troie, I FUCKING HATE IT!!

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