Last year of High School! New Year of College!

 I’m making new friends and experiences. I’m coming out of my shell again and I’m scared it’s gonna happen again. I can believe someone would do that to me. 

I used to be friend with this girl named E. E and I met through a friend named V and they were in friend group consisting of E, V, G and H. From time to time I would hangout with them at school. And during my last year of high school I fully integrated them as I had no other friend group, we did puzzles together, we ate fast food together, we played dnd in a group and eventually that group and a few other students decide to rent a limousine for prom. 

A group chat was created to make the communication about the limousine more simpler. V wasn’t part of the group much in the last year of high school. E and I got closer in that year and even had planned to match for prom. I learned more about H and even went to their house once and met their dog. E and G had a fall out and both said things that can be regretful and H as the friend that they are sided with E. When in reality both people were wrong in that argument. That fight that they have and the attitude that E took after G left the group led me to realize that E wasn’t really a good person and was even very selfish or mean or controlling at times. 

Back to the end of high school, I didn’t attend graduation for personal reason. But when I came back I explained myself to people I thought were my friend and E decided to cut me off. I have no idea why and I don’t think it’s related to the reason why I missed graduation because she seemed to have made her mind before. I was okay with her decision because at that point I saw her as she really was. But this is not where the story ends. Prom goes badly for me because I lost my friends again. For no reason too. 

A few weeks after prom I receive a call from an unsaved number just as I’m leaving the cinema after watching a movie with friends. I look at the messages I sent to that number and I recognize as E, so I text the number but no response. Later on, when I get home, I find that the group chat for limousine added me back. You see something happened after E stop being friends with me that made things weird for me with others so I left the group chat after paying my part of the limousine. But that day I see the message “Imagine trying to kill yourself and not succeeding” or something along those lines and as I was gonna respond I see I was kicked of the group. The thing is the sender of that message isn’t a saved number either but I haven’t send any message to it so yes it not one of my old friends. The thing is I missed graduation because of a Suicide Attempt which I had only told three people H, L and you guess it E. The thing is the message didn’t come from any of their numbers so who told someone? E of course. I learned that she was hanging out with O and M so she obviously talked about me. 

So fuck you Eliana and all your bullshit because we both know I’m not the one who ate a bunch of pills just because I had an argument with my sister. Fucking pathetic.