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 i brood a lot when i wake up, i mean i literally waking up feeling like shit and just want to go back to sleep. although after some time I feel a bit better. i wonder how long I've been dealing with this phenomenon. life isn't that bad until you wake up and realize you have to go do life things now although all I want is lay down in my bean bag and watch good shows which all seems to be k dramas, I swear nothing is good these days unless it's a k drama or is Asian. i mostly like watching anime and Korean shows, I don't know why I call all of them k dramas, I would think some of them don't really fall into the category of k drama, although I have no video what k drama even mean. so that's my thought for the day, at least I'm writing on the blog again so not bad I would say, I can't wait for the new episode of demon slayer tomorrow and the one for one piece although that one is going to be filled with stupid transitions, recaps and intro which makes the episode so short and completely useless. a one piece episode feels like a half or a third. i thought about writing again but I don't have the energy. next time I will bring my computer and find a comfortable position and try to continue to right, I am very picky I know but that's only because I'm dealing with the backlash of my burnout. ohhhh and I finished life is strange yesterday, I obviously sacrificed Chloe since I can't kill the whole city for one person. i can't wait to start playing life is strange before the storm and trueeeee colors which made me start this whole sage of life is strange and after I will play other video games I can't wait; I already added a bunch of them to the account so I can't download them even if they are not free anymore. so manyyyyyy, that actually makes me melt. not lovey dovey stuff that all feel pointless and empty. 

I've been dealing with my huge boredom and lonely and the solution?? video games, everyone sucks or is distant anyways so might as well distract myself with games again and since I don't really feel like playing Minecraft that much these days, time to use the ps5 more I guess :)

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