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 It’s been a while. It’s been almost a month. Lots of happen in a month. Nothing life changing happened. Unless my life status almost changing is important. Yep, I attempted to kill myself and for that I ended up in the hospital for over 24 hours and maximum 72 hours they said but I must of spend almost 36 hours there which means two nights away from home, way too many patients coming in and out and three days of classes missed and guess what not a single one of my “friends” batted an eye no one asked where I was. Besides my family of course, which was a refreshment, I love my siblings although I don’t have anything to say to them so I never call them. We are not very close. We were when we were younger tho, it’s a shame. I’m gonna try and change that. During this month I also thought maybe I could find someone else to love and even an actual friend but not neither of those are true and both of these people are close minded and insensitive and stupid because they believe what’s convenient for them. So no luck there. I’m happy to have remembered my blog. I genuinely forget about it since no one reads it and practically no one remembers I have one but oh well. I love writing and when writing is hard I can always write about myself which is the easiest subject ever because multiple truths and timelines could be truth at the same time so it’s makes things simpler than a one way question answer ratio. I’ll try to write about more happy things. So here’s a few:

  • I got a black comfy bean bag, which I spend most of the time in, besides when I’m eating. 
  • I’m receiving help in some sort of way, I’m part of teen depression symptom program, I take two different medications, I’m part of a family issue program which hopefully will help with my mom and I’m receiving more kind words at schools from faculty but besides that nothings improved at school
  • I bought my favourite bag of popcorn and geez I missed it 
  • I’m trying to talk to my dad more, I guess
  • I’m playing life is strange, the remastered version. My mom purchased it for me.

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