Bulorne, /'byo͞olôrn/, noun, a synonym for rebirth, renewal, recovery or renaissance

 Why is my worth established by others? I could have all the answers in the world but it doesn’t matter as long as most people or some people disagree with it. Why can’t they leave me alone, although they don’t agree or understand what I’m doing, I’m not even hurting nor bothering anyone.

 i brood a lot when i wake up, i mean i literally waking up feeling like shit and just want to go back to sleep. although after some time I feel a bit better. i wonder how long I've been dealing with this phenomenon. life isn't that bad until you wake up and realize you have to go do life things now although all I want is lay down in my bean bag and watch good shows which all seems to be k dramas, I swear nothing is good these days unless it's a k drama or is Asian. i mostly like watching anime and Korean shows, I don't know why I call all of them k dramas, I would think some of them don't really fall into the category of k drama, although I have no video what k drama even mean. so that's my thought for the day, at least I'm writing on the blog again so not bad I would say, I can't wait for the new episode of demon slayer tomorrow and the one for one piece although that one is going to be filled with stupid transitions, recaps and intro which makes the e...

 I wish I had never left that hospital bed.

 It’s been a while. It’s been almost a month. Lots of happen in a month. Nothing life changing happened. Unless my life status almost changing is important. Yep, I attempted to kill myself and for that I ended up in the hospital for over 24 hours and maximum 72 hours they said but I must of spend almost 36 hours there which means two nights away from home, way too many patients coming in and out and three days of classes missed and guess what not a single one of my “friends” batted an eye no one asked where I was. Besides my family of course, which was a refreshment, I love my siblings although I don’t have anything to say to them so I never call them. We are not very close. We were when we were younger tho, it’s a shame. I’m gonna try and change that. During this month I also thought maybe I could find someone else to love and even an actual friend but not neither of those are true and both of these people are close minded and insensitive and stupid because they believe what’s con...