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 So what about the good things, huh? I must be alive for some good reason right? Well idk. I try to socialize more online now. I have joined calls with random people and they didn’t seem to mind me much so that was refreshing. Still don’t have anyone I can’t truly talk to tho. Everyone is stuck somewhere at the moment so stopping it isn’t something worry for anyone. 


If I was granted infinite wishes and I was told be completely selfish I would ask for an actual home, where no one can hurt me, where I can grow hobbies and I have as many pets as I want and have infinite supply of that really good popcorn like in the cinemas, I would have my own home cinema to watch as many movies as I want, I could have friends that actually care and are there when I need them and I would do the exact same for them, I want a space where I can relax without worrying about any things to be done or anyone’s expectation, I wouldn’t want a well equip kitchen so I can learn to cook whatever I feel like and bake a lot of cupcakes and giant cakes, I would ask for a giant garden with a maze to walk in and a secret swing like in that one Cinderella movie, and a enormous pool to swim in for what will feel like eternity, I would ask for sits for the outside so I can do gathering with my friends and barbecues. I would ask to be able to travel the world and do a North America road trip, I would ask for a good camera to take amazing pictures of moments I don’t wanna forget and I want to appreciate for as much time as I want to, I would ask

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