to whom it may concern, 

I have never explained what the purpose of this blog is nor why it is in a letter format. I chose the letter format because it is simple and it feels like I am writing to someone, which I am, and her and bulorne are not random names I thought of to feel the letter top. Her is the younger version of myself which I write to in moments when I am reliving something similar to a past experience or when I am thinking about problems I am facing that are keeping me from advancing and evolving for the future. While Bulorne is the new version of me that I am not yet and as defined by the name of the blog she is what I will be when I enter my cocoon as a larva (her) and come out as a butterfly (bulorne). furthermore, any letter that isn't for her or bulorne is for others or me who are in the present. in other words, I simply see myself as the transition between the two states and I am trying to discuss and solve my past & visualize and construct my future as much as I can but simply writing about them. why did I choose to do that? no idea, this format took place gradually like most creative things I do in life and I personally enjoy writing on my blog a lot. it feels more purposeful than my journal too. anywho I got to go eat eventually therefore it might as well be now...


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