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 dear her, 

when googling "is it easier to suffocate when you're drunk"

the following results can be read 

  • alcohol with high levels of tannins can be a big culprit in exacerbating Asian flush and making it harder to breathe when having some drinks
  • With no gag reflex, a person who drinks to the point of passing out is in danger of choking on his or her vomit and dying from lack of oxygen 
  • Is it okay to let a drunk person sleep? : Absolutely not! Even though the person may appear to be "sleeping it off", their blood alcohol level can still rise and create a life-threatening situation. Place the person on their side, maintain that position and stay with the person
  • Why do I stop breathing when I'm drunk? : Alcohol decreases your drive to breathe, slowing your breathing and making your breaths shallow. In addition, it may relax the muscles of your throat, which may make it more likely for your upper airway to collapse.
  • How long does being drunk last? : Generally speaking, it takes about 6 hours for the effects of being drunk to wear off. If you count the hangover/detoxification period that happens after drinking alcohol, the effects may last longer. For most people, one drink leads to a .02 blood alcohol level. 
all that to say, alcohol makes it harder to breathe. alcohol is, in conclusion, the missing piece to my kms plan. while cutting your own oxygen intake is hard because of the gag and reflex well alcohol seems to make it slower to react and, in that case, easier to kms. 

I haven't taken my medicine in two days but as I've discovered before the only thing it does is help me float for a short period and make it impossible to feel certain things. It's also a pain in the ass to swallow without burning my throat since it's acid, sertraline. nonetheless, I've thought this threw this time and even attempted at lowering my oxygen intake, in class, and that led to my vision being temporarily blurry after breathing less 3 to 4 times for a few seconds, 15 s?, anyways that's what I've come to if it fails, I still will have to do it. because I've realized that I can't get better. even if I do slightly it's temporary and futile since I will drop low soon after. the counselling didn't help, the medicine barely truly did anything and no gives a damn about it besides me and I'm too tired to fight it anymore. this blog did help for a bit but then not a single person cares about it, nor checks it without me making allusions or comments about it so it just ends up being, overall, useless. 


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