dear bulorne, her

a few days ago, a conclusion, of my speaking out, was delivered to my door. it was a medium size carton that contained a few items. like the item that I'm using to write you this letter, it was given to me after I finally accepted wanting it and I'm currently listening to a waltz ballad or something like it from the nutcracker I read. today I've decided to travel with a lace glove on my left hand, it is kind of uncomfortable but I feel like I have to make use of it since I bought it some time ago and I've barely used it, overconsumption? I do own a lot of different things, I now have a vinyl record player and a few vinyl discs to listen to, I own a camera, I own many stuffed animals, I own many fake plants, I own many clothes and many boots, I own many nail polish,I own many perfumes, I own many styles and very few words and most importantly I'm owning myself again, bit by bit. One day, I'll be able to say I've gone through my bulorne phase or I'm Bulorne, either are good outcomes

Florian. B

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